Saturday, July 5, 2014

God's Love

MSG:"(I John 4:18) 18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear has punishment. "

This seemed to be a good one. For me anyways.

I have always had personal issues. Mainly being  afraid of love. Not of girl/guy love. Love period. 

I could never trust enough to have love or give it as well! I knew what it was and how it felt... Yes! But I feared it deeply. And bc of that I never knew what it was suppose to be. Everything negative always happened. Fights, lies, people stealing, people doing me wrong, drugs and alcohol. Etc. I knew that wasn't love but I also knew that if I hid from the world I couldn't have harm hurt me. Wrong again!! I turned hateful and angry. That was my punishment for believing the world couldn't hurt me when I was of the world blindly. How did I overcome that?! It took years!! 5 maybe? It wasn't until my sister (acted out of love) told what she saw daily and dragged me to this church. Awakening life. It took me a few times to understand what was going on. But when I figured it out. Oh I let go! I let go of it all. I finally felt real love!! That was love!! Gods love!! And I didn't want to lose that!!! Not a chance! So I fought!! Hard!! And I still have that love and I'm not letting go! So don't think hiding and lying to yourself is gonna help u make it. Bc you won't. You gotta have Gods love first to love anything. Only then will you actually be free of fear or to be more exact: THIS WORLD!

1 comment:

  1. Great devotion Chelsea!!! We are very thankful that you found your way to Awakening Life Church!!! LOVE COVERS A MULTITUDE OF SINS AND PERFECT LOVE CASTES OUT ALL FEAR!!!! God's love is pure and His love is the only thing ever that fill any voids in our life. I love you :) Pamela Britt Malone